i'm startin with the man in the mirror, i'm askin him to chaaange his waaaays

[Plug Drugs]

no message could have been any clearer, if ya wanna make the world a better place take a look at yourself and make a chaaaaaange

no more drugs or booze

Zj2KV2ETO3g

i'm gonna make a healthy lunch, then exercise!
tomorrow comes today

[steveyos]

do you really send that psycho bitch lisa emails that are even more psycho than she is

[Plug Drugs]

i dont know i sent her a few emails the other day asking if she wanted to be my friend again

[m0nde]

you should keep sendng emails to everyone whose email you have on the forum to annoy them as much as stevey does

[steveyos]

you know emailing her just makes her hate you more right? or do you not see the posts where she talks about how it makes her hate you more

[steveyos]

the good news is even ob would be an upgrade over lisa

[steveyos YOLO]

She's just playing hard to get. I'd start sending her emails every 5 minutes throughout the day

[Plug Drugs]

here's the scoop. i get really really fucking high, i mean like blasted, and i zig zag off in random directions, and sometimes that entails acting like a jackass and spouting out a bunch of pathetic cry-baby bullshit

[Plug Drugs]

but thats all about to change, i'm going straight and i'm choosing life!

[steveyos]

I get really high and all that happens is girls like me even more that's not the reason it's happening

[Autistic Spectrum]

Originally Posted by BatteriWyfe View Post
Keep in mind that I do not reply to these.....
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18 July 3:59pm
sorry, i really miss you =(
is there anything i can do? i'll do anything =(
you could light up my whole world by being my friend
gah i'm sorry... i hope one day we'll be friends again
i'll stop bugging you...

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18 July 4:29pm
can you come on skype for a little bit? i'm really depressed right now
it'd mean a lot to me.. idk

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18 July 5:36pm
you know what nevermind
you're a terrible friend.
I'd be there for you in a heartbeat if you ever needed me, but you'd never return that favor.
I'm done. Bye.
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And that was just yesterday, I keep getting shit like this all the time

[Autistic Spectrum]

lolling so hard that's like in the span of an hour,,,

[Autistic Spectrum]

hey what's up,,,,

HEY, YOU Around"?? Wanna Chat,,?


DIE BITCH DIE

[Plug Drugs]

have you ever been up on speed for 3 days and think that crows outside or your television is trying to talk to you?

[Plug Drugs]

lolling so hard that's like in the span of an hour,,,
hmm well yeah she just ignored me, it hurts

[Plug Drugs]

hurts my feelings

[Autistic Spectrum]

so sorry for your loss, pd,

[Plug Drugs]

i'm a pathetic piece of shit, lay it on me

[Autistic Spectrum]

it's lisa's fault, so don't worry about it, just keep trying,

[steveyos]

yeah see that's not from being high


for example when I'm high iwc and cag and ob wanna marry me 9999999999x more than usual

[steveyos]

have you ever been up on speed for 3 days and think that crows outside or your television is trying to talk to you?

no but I've been up for seven days and not even on the seventh day did I send any mean messages to anyone or try to talk to people who hate me

[Plug Drugs]

yeah see that's not from being high


for example when I'm high iwc and cag and ob wanna marry me 9999999999x more than usual
yeah thats cool youve just never been to the dark side yet

[steveyos]

and I never will, because I'm not generic
since your are, get some generic ttherapy already

[steveyos YOLO]

You just gotta be a man and learn to not need anyone else...especially for sexual purposes

[maks]

maybe it's because in addition to being high you're also insane

[Plug Drugs]

bullshit try binging on speed, its only a matter of time before you have a psychotic break, only a matter of time. Watch your image of yourself shatter, and the pieces slip through your fingertips

[Autistic Spectrum]

fuck your mother, she's the only one who can turley understand your seuxal needs,

[Plug Drugs]

its not just drugs im a pathetic piece of shit, what more can i say

[Plug Drugs]

try to be nice and it only pushes someone away, fucking bullshit. Humanity is gay as fuck

[Plug Drugs]

fuck humanity

[Plug Drugs]

jesus way to put me in a bad mood, i'm gonna go eat my healthy lunch now and work out on my bowflex or w/e and i will be content with myself damn it

[steveyos]

the worst part about this is lisa is fucking terrible lol

[maks]

this isn't a humanity problem it's a michael bushpigbushpigbushpigbushpig problem so either go to a shrink or give up and kill yourself either way quit whining about it

[Plug Drugs]

no shes not shes awesome i dont know why i just think shes the coolest person ive ever met, fuck

[steveyos]

it's because you're stupid

[steveyos YOLO]

It's because you're a mindless drug addict and need to get clean to realize what a dumbass you currently are

[maks]

it's because she's the only person he ever met who isn't better than him in every way

[Plug Drugs]

mmmmm browned hamburger with habanero tabasco sauce to cleanse the intestines, like rocket fuel

[Plug Drugs]

stomple,

[macpro]

I'm blocking PD. Just like he was dead.

[Plug Drugs]

stomple, join me... feast on the flesssshh of the humble cows

[Cody]

have you ever been up on speed for 3 days and think that crows outside or your television is trying to talk to you?

lol youre really a pussy, i've pulled 6-7 days a bunch of time on pure glass but nothing ever spoke to me. the fact is youre a weak minded little pussy. Youre not even beta youre that other thing thats even sadder and worse...

[Plug Drugs]

i am masochistic, i love hot foods.. habanero peppers especially give you a strong endorphin rush from the pain

[Plug Drugs]

lol youre really a pussy, i've pulled 6-7 days a bunch of time on pure glass but nothing ever spoke to me. the fact is youre a weak minded little pussy. Youre not even beta youre that other thing thats even sadder and worse...
you were probably taking pussy-foot doses yourself, i take fucking 120mg at a time sometimes.. ill take you on in a game of "speed" (like a game of drink except with speed instead of alcohol) any old day

[Plug Drugs]

take turns swallowing pills until one of us starts convulsing

[Plug Drugs]

ill do it man, this niggas crazy

[steveyos]

don't ever stop, bob hughes stopped and now he's fucking ridiculously bad at posting

[Plug Drugs]

TBKz6qFyUOU

[Gentleman Doli]

plug drugs, nothing turns a guril on more than when u whimper like a bitch and start goign hey plz talk to me plzease please tlak to me you dirty whore

[steveyos]

enimen sucks really bad

[Gentleman Doli]

don't ever stop, bob hughes stopped and now he's fucking ridiculously bad at posting

he seems like a decent guy now thogh

[Plug Drugs]

post-enhancing drugs

[steveyos]

he seems like a decent guy now thogh

nope, just nope

[steveyos]

post-enhancing drugs

there's not any when at this place because funny needs to feed off funny and there's no funny here so no matter hwo funny you are you can't be funny


like me I'm hilarious and the best poster but here I look terrible because I"m surrounded by terrible

[Plug Drugs]

we all need to go back to posting about gay nigger dicks or whatever we used to do

[Cody]

take turns swallowing pills until one of us starts convulsing

hahaha you and your sorry ass little pills, I'm talking about glass kid.

http://www.dudeiwantthat.com/food/candy/breaking-bad-blue-glass-meth-4869.jpg

cali style.

[Obnoxious Bitch]

the good news is even ob would be an upgrade over lisa

Don't insult me like that.

[Cody]

Don't insult me like that.

yeah the only reason youre better than lisa is that you post less, youre equally horrible

[steveyos]

actually I should insult lisa like that I forget how terrible you are when you arenmt online lmao

[blumpkin blownuts]

no message could have been any clearer, if ya wanna make the world a better place take a look at yourself and make a chaaaaaange

no more drugs or booze

Zj2KV2ETO3g

i'm gonna make a healthy lunch, then exercise!
tomorrow comes today

wow... if you are serious then keep in mind it's virtually guaranteed not to work doing it alone. go to NA, go to 90 meetings in your first 90 days if possible. get a sponsor. work the steps but at a steady pace - it's not a race.

you'll need to embrace spirtual (not religious) principles. most addicts it turns out are atheist/agnostic and don't identify with a particular higher power, but to recover they must accept that there exists some sort of loving, higher power out there - even if that ends up just being NA as a whole.

you'll find alot of ups and downs in your first few months clean. once you learn how to practice acceptance, you'll find that when things go well, even little things, they will appear ten miles tall compared to the things that will go wrong. and then the big things that go well, those will make you fucking euphoric for days or weeks on end. within 3-12 months of clean living, you'll probably find that you're happier than you ever been in your entire life.

i wish you the best

[always stevey]

Marco made a sea kitten...

[blumpkin blownuts]

Hitting Bottom

We don't up and decide to attend NA because we're excelling at life or finding ourselves free from problems.
Most addicts are driven to seek help when they are face-to-face with a highly-negative life change, such as divorce, loss of custody, bankruptcy, prison sentences, insanity or death. Not everyone hits the same bottom, or falls to the same extent. Some of us may have hit our bottom years before seeking help, and haven't yet realized just how little we've had for such a long time.

For those of us who haven't been driven into the rooms by a recent horrible event, it is easy to fall into a psychological trap by comparing our own circumstances to those of other addicts. The disease of addiction constantly attempts to fool us and tell us that we aren't "real addicts", or that we still have control over our lives while in active addiction, or that we can resume using after some milestone achieved or lesson learned in recovery.

Most recovering addicts will relapse, and while relapse is not the most desirable way to have our powerlessness over drugs confirmed, it is one of the easiest ways to come to terms with this inevitable conclusion. One of the biggest ways that NA is successful is that relapsing addicts are always encouraged to come back to the rooms, where they can still find love and forgiveness by their fellows, instead of being judged or berated.

As long as an addict keeps coming back, and never loses their desire to be clean, they can easily recover from a relapse before they hit a lower bottom than the circumstances that first brought them to the program.

[Plug Drugs]

is that straight out of the pages of the narcotics anonymous book?

[Plug Drugs]

bob, let me be honest, i think youre making your problem with drugs out to be this monstrous insolvable ultimatum, and in doing so you're giving your addiction the power to still ruin your life even after the drugs are gone.
You're putting your addiction up on a pedestal, stop it, just want something better for yourself, don't measure things in terms of how high they get you, just stop ittSTOPSPP SOTOPPPTIOpasotopsidrpfsditr

[blumpkin blownuts]

is that straight out of the pages of the narcotics anonymous book?

i paraphrased it but yeah it's near the beginning of the Basic Text

[steveyos YOLO]

I need drug counseling

[blumpkin blownuts]

bob, let me be honest, i think youre making your problem with drugs out to be this monstrous insolvable ultimatum, and in doing so you're giving your addiction the power to still ruin your life even after the drugs are gone.
You're putting your addiction up on a pedestal, stop it, just want something better for yourself, don't measure things in terms of how high they get you, just stop ittSTOPSPP SOTOPPPTIOpasotopsidrpfsditr

it is unsolvable, and the worst part is i did it to myself. what's even worse is all the people who are able to use substances without abusing them, they got some kind of bonus that i didn't get. it's completely fucking unfair, yet -- honestly -- i don't care. it's finally not worth getting upset over anymore.

i am not defined by my mistakes, but i don't pretend they never happened, because i will be learning from those mistakes and using them to improve myself and my quality of life for the rest of my life. sometimes i feel bad for fucked up people who never got addicted, because recovery is so much more than how to stay clean, it provides incredibly useful tools for learning to live happy, joyous and free.

[blumpkin blownuts]

bob, let me be honest, i think youre making your problem with drugs out to be this monstrous insolvable ultimatum, and in doing so you're giving your addiction the power to still ruin your life even after the drugs are gone.
You're putting your addiction up on a pedestal, stop it, just want something better for yourself, don't measure things in terms of how high they get you, just stop ittSTOPSPP SOTOPPPTIOpasotopsidrpfsditr

Keep in mind there's other recovery groups besides 12-step programs, like Reasonable Recovery which teaches addicts they can still use in moderation without ever getting out of control again. I think the doctor who founded that particular group later got behind the wheel drunk and she ended up killing most of a family in an accident.

[steveyos YOLO]

1 gold box

[blumpkin blownuts]

anyway i'm off to my gf's

i hope you do it mike, but it's up to you to realize whether or not you need help from people like you to improve your life
NA can't remove your desire to get high, you really need to already have that before even bothering with recovery

[blumpkin blownuts]

or maybe you just need to wait until you have REAL fucking problems like i did, before you'll see it for yourself

[Cody]

bob, let me be honest, i think youre making your problem with drugs out to be this monstrous insolvable ultimatum, and in doing so you're giving your addiction the power to still ruin your life even after the drugs are gone.
You're putting your addiction up on a pedestal, stop it, just want something better for yourself, don't measure things in terms of how high they get you, just stop ittSTOPSPP SOTOPPPTIOpasotopsidrpfsditr

its just cult doctrine, bob has joined a cult, and its his job to make the cult grow by convincing weak minded people like yourself that a good job and steady pussy can't replace the self medicating you turn to because you hate your life atm.

[Autistic Spectrum]

Marco made a sea kitten...
cag pls, join it's the only way this crew can save face

[always stevey]

I was the one who showed it to elz in the first place before he founded this crew or whatever.

[Autistic Spectrum]

cag, u are my hero,

[always stevey]

I've always wanted to be a hero.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R7J80-suY0s

[Plug Drugs]

what is a sea kitten

[steveyos]

it's something that's even gayer than you

[Plug Drugs]

wow stevey i thought we had something special well way to go throw it all away

[steveyos]

make more posts at fjs

[always stevey]

Isn't the man in the mirror like a movie or something

[steveyos]

it's a michael jackson song you idiot

[steveyos]

it's a bad one though, he's made a few really awesome songs but that is not one of them

[Plug Drugs]

http://s21.postimg.org/rucrw6px3/Sea_Kitten_COCKMASTERGAYLORD.jpg

[steveyos]

this is one of my favorite songs ever by anybody


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Uj3zitETs4

[always stevey]

it's a michael jackson song you idiot

I don't listen to Michael Jackson. I don't care about him, the kids he fucked, or his songs.

[Cody]

I don't listen to Michael Jackson. I don't care about him, the kids he fucked, or his songs.

[steveyos]

plain paper bitch