I'm sorry

[Dirty Beatle]

for whatever

I'll go again for 5 mins.

[Dirty Beatle]

I have borderline personality disorder, I can deal with that

But I'n scared of the dissociative disorder because it can happen randomly and then I literally have no idea what I'm doing or why and it really bothers me to do stuff that I have no idea why I did it. I'm still trying to deal with the last time when I threw all my cloths and linen outside and packed bags with weird stuff in them, one bag had books, tampons, loose cigarettes and a can of beans and all kinds of random weird stuff, I found one in the boot of my car, was I planning in going somewhere? I ruined half my cloths because it took me weeks to gather everything back up and wash it and by that time some of them had rotten through from being left in the grass and mud. It really bothers me, the more I stress about it the worse it is but the worst thing is knowing that when I have such an episode I have no idea I'm having it, I have no idea what is going through my head, last time I ended up climbing over massive barbed wire fences in the middle of the night and standing in a car repair shop under a security light with my oversized pants around my ankles and that was literally the most lucid moment I had at the time because I actually remember what I was thinking before I came to, I was trying to follow the light and I thought if I followed lights enough I would arrive somewhere where I could leave this life, instead all I was doing was randomly seeing lights on in the middle of night and climbing over fences to get to them, I still have a scar on my leg from the barbed wire. I don't know if that was a dissociative disorder episode or sleepwalking but it happened around the time where I did all that other weird stuff I still have no idea why I did and I'm still dealing with not being able to find things because I moved and hid everything, there is so many reasons why this bothers me but then I get scared that if I worry about it too much I'll have another episode. Hopefully these are brain aneurysms or something and it will burst and I'll just drift off in a painless clueless state of no mind and never have to worry about shit that when I think about it really doesn't matter. Do you have any idea how fucked up people are? There is some fucking terrible shit going on out there, this shit only affects me so it doesn't matter. I used to want to help people you know, I used to think there was a point.

[steveyos YOLO]

Sounds like you need locked in a cage for your own protection

[sad rats fuck]

why did it take you weeks to pick your clothes up

[sad rats fuck]

locked in a cag

[steveyos666]

lonnie

[steveyos YOLO]

That better not be lonnie

[steveyos666]

agreed I'll be pissed

[Dirty Beatle]

why did it take you weeks to pick your clothes up
Because it was raining a lot, can only do one load of washing and during at a time

Idiots

I don't have 10 washing machines in fact right now I don't have a washing machine at all as I tried after doing that many loads of washing.

New one gets here on wednseday

[Dirty Beatle]

Sounds like you need locked in a cage for your own protection
Sometimes I guess if I have more episodes, I try to lock myself up anyway, I must have escaped.

[Garfield]

personality disorders are just excuse people made up for their weak emotional control. get yur head out of your ass and quit feeling sorry for yourself

[Dirty Beatle]

personality disorders are just excuse people made up for their weak emotional control. get yur head out of your ass and quit feeling sorry for yourself

There are actual physical differences in the brain

And dissociative disorder is not a personality disorder or something to snort at you dumb fuck, you have no idea how fucking frightening it is.

I said I can deal with the borderline, I have my whole life and used to be more productive than you in spite of it.

But I wasn't talking about that now was I?

Idiot.

[sad rats fuck]

Because it was raining a lot, can only do one load of washing and during at a time

Idiots

I don't have 10 washing machines in fact right now I don't have a washing machine at all as I tried after doing that many loads of washing.

New one gets here on wednseday
it stil doesn't make sense for clothes to still be wet for weeks unless you tied them up in bags so that they couldn't dry out

[steveyos YOLO]

I bet they smell pretty bad

[Garfield]

probably likemildew

[Garfield]

depressed people are too lazy to do their own clothes theyre too busy thining about themselves and looking at them selves all sad in the mirror boo hoo

[Dirty Beatle]

it stil doesn't make sense for clothes to still be wet for weeks unless you tied them up in bags so that they couldn't dry out

It is winter here, it rains all the time

Doesn't make sense otherwise, not too bright are you? It's basic maths, 30 loads of washing to do and dry, one washing machine and one cloth horse to dry small cloths inside with.

Go figure.

Moron.

[sad rats fuck]

how much of the taxpayers money did you spend on your new washing machine

[sad rats fuck]

30 washing machine loads, maybe you have too many clothes

[Dirty Beatle]

I bet they smell pretty bad

They did, so bad that I spewed. I washed them all with hot water and nappy sanitizer first, then gave them a second was and overnight soak again with nappy sanitizer and washing powder. A lot of them were ruined though, rotted right through.

[Garfield]

didnt know they had goodwills on penguin island

[Dirty Beatle]

how much of the taxpayers money did you spend on your new washing machine

I know I've paid more tax than you in my life.

[sad rats fuck]

i don't believe your clothes rotted through that quickly

[Garfield]

bail isnt tax lisa

[Dirty Beatle]

depressed people are too lazy to do their own clothes theyre too busy thining about themselves and looking at them selves all sad in the mirror boo hoo

I do my own cloths and I don't like looking in the mirror

I was talking about how scary the dissociative disorder is. There is something going on in my brain that is scary.

[steveyos YOLO]

I bet the sheets rooty spewed on were pretty gross smelling

[Dirty Beatle]

bail isnt tax lisa

What? Lol

I worked for 20 years.

I used to be a teacher remember?

[steveyos YOLO]

Stab your face off so you won't know who you are when looking in the mirror anymore

[sad rats fuck]

I was talking about how scary the dissociative disorder is. There is something going on in my brain that is scary.

you ruined your clothes and pulled your pants down in front of a security camera for attention

[Dirty Beatle]

I bet the sheets rooty spewed on were pretty gross smelling
He didn't spew in anything

But they grew all kinds of funky moulds from being in the grass, dirt and rain

Some of my cushions actually grew grass on them

[Garfield]

dissociative disorder is what lazy people call themselves to get out of work and paying taxes LIKE AN ADULT

[sad rats fuck]

WHERE AM I

[Dirty Beatle]

you ruined your clothes and pulled your pants down in front of a security camera for attention

No, I was dressed, the pants were too big and had fallen down. I didn't see a camera but I assume there was one, it was the middle of the night, no-one was around luckily, it certainly wasn't for attention, it was during some kind of episode where I did a lot of strange things, I would like to see the security footage though if there is some, there probably would be.

[sad rats fuck]

when did you realize you were acting like a nutcase and go home

[steveyos YOLO]

I have a lot of guns irl...

[Garfield]

shoot them in the air maybe theyll land onlisa

[Dirty Beatle]

dissociative disorder is what lazy people call themselves to get out of work and paying taxes LIKE AN ADULT

Lol no it's not

It's pretty scary

You know there are a lot of things I couldn't do anymore lest I have an episode, I'm lucky enough I'm not locked up in a hospital but you know when I do have my wherewithal I come across as sane so they let me out after a couple of days and no-one is around when I have an episode because I live by myself, my mother knew because I sent her wired text messages but what is she meant to do? Nothing. There is nothing anyone can do except lock me up.

[Garfield]

or you could get a job lisa instead of sitting here googling dissociative disorder over ad over

[Dirty Beatle]

when did you realize you were acting like a nutcase and go home

I was standing under a security light inside the car repair shop garage, all of a sudden I recognised where I was, before that point I was not compos mentis enough to know, all I know what I was doing before that point was following lights, I froze stiff for a minute, I was scared, I pulled up my pants and stood there for a moment to think. I thought I was lucky I had gotten as far as I did without getting into any trouble so I tried to just go back the way I came, I had to climb back over fences, it was the one moment where I actually at least knew what had been going through my head before reaching that point, I am more disturbed by the stuff like throwing my cloths and linen outside and packing bags with strange things and hiding stuff because I have no idea what was going through my head, like literally no idea at all why I did that, if I had some idea what I was thinking or why I did that even if it was crazy it wouldn't be as scary, it's the having no idea at all what I was thinking or why I did that that upsets me the most.

[Dirty Beatle]

or you could get a job lisa instead of sitting here googling dissociative disorder over ad over

I've looked it up because it's been suggested to me I have it and I didn't know what it is. It's just another label and the term will be obsolete in 10-20 years but that doesn't change what happens and the effect that has on my life.

No I'm not getting a job at the moment, shove it.

[Dirty Beatle]

I have a lot of guns irl...

I'm glad I don't

But I still don't think I'd shoot anyone, probably just myself but I just don't know because I just don't know what I was thinking when I did more benign things like throw all my cloths and linen outside, if I just knew what I was thinking I wouldn't be as disturbed by it.

[asux]

Because it was raining a lot, can only do one load of washing and during at a time

Idiots

I don't have 10 washing machines in fact right now I don't have a washing machine at all as I tried after doing that many loads of washing.

New one gets here on wednseday
was not

[asux]

I'm glad I don't

But I still don't think I'd shoot anyone, probably just myself but I just don't know because I just don't know what I was thinking when I did more benign things like throw all my cloths and linen outside, if I just knew what I was thinking I wouldn't be as disturbed by it.
did you throw the cloths that you had on as well

[Dirty Beatle]

did you throw the cloths that you had on as well

No but that was why I was wearing oversized cloths, I was left with not much of an option of what to wear, I also had to dry myself with my cloths for a while because I had thrown all the towels outside, it really was quite complicated to get back on top of all the washing, then to top it off it confused the cat so that when I did do a pile of washing and got it dry, it was sitting in a pile and the cat would piss on it so I'd have to do it all again, it was a never ending battle for a while

[Dirty Beatle]

was not

Yes it was

It's raining right now even

It rains a lot on the island this time of year, a lot.

[asux]

Yes it was

It's raining right now even

It rains a lot on the island this time of year, a lot.
not raining yet fucking cold thow

[sad rats fuck]

calling the qquest to wash your cloths a neverending battle seems quite dramatic

[asux]

i made 2 trips to smithfild and did not run into any rain

[asux]

calling the qquest to wash your cloths a neverending battle seems quite dramatic

its more then a quest to wash my colth .thay all stuck to gether when i go to wash .do u get that

[Dirty Beatle]

calling the qquest to wash your cloths a neverending battle seems quite dramaticIt was dramatic

it's usually a mundane routine thing but this was an epic battle of the washing ok?

[Dirty Beatle]

its more then a quest to wash my colth .thay all stuck to gether when i go to wash .do u get thatlol

[Dirty Beatle]

i made 2 trips to smithfild and did not run into any rainit is PISSING down in buckets here

as usual

[steveyos YOLO]

Do you think your issues are a side effect of menopause?

[Dirty Beatle]

Do you think your issues are a side effect of menopause?not old enough for that
but it's upsetting because I would have loved to have a kid one day, I can't very well in good conscious do that if I have episodes, I'm ok now, like I think I have my wherewithal at the moment but I'm scared and upset that it could happen again

[lnopia the great]

do you wash your clothes by hand? i dont see how a washer and dryer is considered hard work

[Dirty Beatle]

do you wash your clothes by hand? i dont see how a washer and dryer is considered hard work

I don't have a dryer

You don't understand how 30 loads of washing could be a lot of work when you only have a small cloths horse to dry them on?

Um ok

[Dirty Beatle]

http://s14.postimg.org/g2m12bwwh/image.jpg

Picture of the scar from the barbed wire fence, excuse the spikey hair, haven't shaved in a week.

[steveyos YOLO]

I keep a 9mm ruger right beside my bed

[asux]

it is PISSING down in buckets here

as usual

is not

[asux]

I keep a 9mm ruger right beside my bed
have you got lic if so can you stop at the cop shop and pick up all mine

[asux]

http://s14.postimg.org/g2m12bwwh/image.jpg

Picture of the scar from the barbed wire fence, excuse the spikey hair, haven't shaved in a week.

do you need a hand or 2 'to shave

[Dirty Beatle]

is nothttp://www.willyweather.com.au/vic/gippsland/cowes.html

[Dirty Beatle]

do you need a hand or 2 'to shavelol I can do it

I don't have a reason to ATM though

[steveyos666]

I have a lot of guns irl...


shoot them in the air maybe theyll land onlisa
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa 2x combo

[steveyos666]

I keep a 9mm ruger right beside my bed

[steveyos666]

lol I can do it

I don't have a reason to do ATM atm though

[Garfield]

I'm glad I don't

But I still don't think I'd shoot anyone, probably just myself but I just don't know because I just don't know what I was thinking when I did more benign things like throw all my cloths and linen outside, if I just knew what I was thinking I wouldn't be as disturbed by it.

rooty ou shouldve bought lisa a gun instead of an ipad

[cagordon]

Lol no it's not

It's pretty scary

You know there are a lot of things I couldn't do anymore lest I have an episode, I'm lucky enough I'm not locked up in a hospital but you know when I do have my wherewithal I come across as sane so they let me out after a couple of days and no-one is around when I have an episode because I live by myself, my mother knew because I sent her wired text messages but what is she meant to do? Nothing. There is nothing anyone can do except lock me up.


Dissociative disorders (DD) are conditions that involve disruptions or breakdowns of memory, awareness, identity or perception. People with dissociative disorders use dissociation, a defense mechanism, pathologically and involuntarily. Dissociative disorders are thought to primarily be caused by psychological trauma.


the circus performer, the teacher, and the dope deala

[cagordon]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4PM5YWZnhIs

i have dissocitive disorder too. ^__^ This song is basically the story of my life

[Autistic Spectrum]

the butcher the baker the babysitter raper

[cagordon]

the butcher the baker the babysitter raper

[steveyos666]

the boy steala rock smokin old flip flop flope slut fulla dope

[cagordon]

the boy steala rock smokin old flip flop flope slut fulla dope

[steveyos666]

yesterday she was this tomorrow she'll be that, her name is loopy lisa people think that she's on crack

[cagordon]

the cag, the cag, and the cag

[cagordon]

someone do me next im too stupid too think up something

[Autistic Spectrum]

It's just sad that this video has 4 million views, and one of eminem's videos has 84 million. This rap is about something, it has a cause and meaning, and eminem never has ANY of that stuff. Damn shame. 

[PROFESSIONAL WHITE SUPREMACIST]

pathological shitposter

[steveyos666]

lisa hates cag, calls her a slag, ya'd think she on the rag but she always just mad cause she mad, like, insane in the brain and her insane clown pussy brown like an old cream pie

[cagordon]

insane clown pussy

[cagordon]

:rofl:

[PROFESSIONAL WHITE SUPREMACIST]

cag u should tinychat your next psychiatrist appointment

[steveyos666]

cag well her ya know, she got the fresh funky flow when she go I mean she go, like, the way she put a boot in ya ass, while she puff grass and diggin up ya grave wit er face, I saaaaid a diggin up ya grave wit er face, nigga

[Autistic Spectrum]

cag u should tinychat your next psychiatrist appointment

wait what is cag seeing a srhink for her rape

[Autistic Spectrum]

i am her current shrink i think i need to trade notes with her new one

[steveyos666]

shovel chin crazy bitch, crazy rich from shakin dat ass, garglin on gophers dick, takin it all in dat ass

[cagordon]

seeing a psychologist. they are putting me on meds to make me normal so my posts are going to go from really bad to even worse

[cagordon]

gophers dick takin it all in dat ass

Gopher never responds to my posts so I hate him now

[steveyos666]

I seen a ho the other day said her name was whatever, I think it was plain paper I was more focused on whether, I should, snap lisa's neck, to get the fat check from her family she be embarassin g

[steveyos666]

I seen a ho the other day said her name was whatever, I think it was plain paper I was more focused on whether, I should, snap lisa's neck, to get the fat check from her family she be embarassin, g

[cagordon]

Last night i posted "i love you gopher" on about 600 of his videos, so yeah i get the message. :cry:

[steveyos666]

poor thing

[Autistic Spectrum]

seeing a psychologist. they are putting me on meds to make me normal so my posts are going to go from really bad to even worse

i hope you get over your issues but at the same time when you do, u will no longer want to put yourself though the abuse of posting here, so i will miss you cag, u will be forever in my :heart:

[cagordon]

you'd call this abuse? i'd call it petty banter but thats just me. ive seen worse done to people here before

[Autistic Spectrum]

the meds are kicking in,,, petty banter,, ,,, must resit the urge to post captial letters Petty NOOOOOOOOOO FUCK YOU MEDS

[cagordon]

dude i haven't started the meds yet, deso says i shouuld tell the psychiatrist i have anxiety and i'll get some top notch medication

[Dirty Beatle]

Dissociative disorders (DD) are conditions that involve disruptions or breakdowns of memory, awareness, identity or perception. People with dissociative disorders use dissociation, a defense mechanism, pathologically and involuntarily. Dissociative disorders are thought to primarily be caused by psychological trauma.


the circus performer, the teacher, and the dope deala
I don't sell pot

I stopped doing that when I was 20 after being held up in my flat with a dirty big knife for all my money and weed.

[Autistic Spectrum]

take medical advice from a post op tranny, good thinking cag

[Dirty Beatle]

seeing a psychologist. they are putting me on meds to make me normal so my posts are going to go from really bad to even worse

About time ;p

[steveyos666]

I love not having to take anything to be able to live life I'm even trying to quit aspirin and probably will once I have top quality weed every day

[steveyos666]

why am I the only person capable of exisiting in 2014 without the help of others

[PROFESSIONAL WHITE SUPREMACIST]

traded this guy I met at the hipster bar some of my adderalls for his xanax he got for ptsd because his stepdad sucked his dick when he was three or something I wasn't really paying attention while he was telling his sad life story but it was cool as fuck like being drunk but better

[steveyos666]

I don't see therapists or anything I am so happy I'm me gonna make debbie a very happy mother of six one day

[cagordon]

i hope they give me adderall.. holy shit i could triple my posting average, if i had adderall i could get in a 100,000 posts in a week

[cagordon]

i'll take a shitload of xani and come onto tinychat drooling and making weird spitty gargling noises

[Autistic Spectrum]

why am I the only person capable of exisiting in 2014 without the help of others

lmao ,, you are posting this from a tablet paid for by welfare

[steveyos666]

someone put their dick in my buttcheeks when I was like five seconds old, why am I capable of living without pills and others aren't why am I so lucky and why can't I find someone else like me

[steveyos666]

I've had worse shit happen to me more times than everyone else here combined and I'm still better off than everyone it's why I can't be trolled, I would be the best thing to ever happen to cag but I don't like weak people and pills are for we4klings I need a girl who isn't gonna just instantly die in an event

[steveyos666]

I wonder what middletoes is up to

[Desolation]

take medical advice from a post op tranny, good thinking cag

I'm a boy

[Desolation]

http://www.rubycalaber.com/forums/image.php?u=6&dateline=1402552914

[Dirty Beatle]

I'm a boy

A big boy.

[Desolation]

4u

[Dirty Beatle]

*dribbles a bit*

[PROFESSIONAL WHITE SUPREMACIST]

adderall is cool its like superman pills i take them whenever i have important shit to do that requires not being a lazy pos and long periods of boring crap
its easy as hell to get i went to the hospital told some milf dr i couldnt pay attention
she listed a bunch of numbers and words to me and I'd repeat them back to her wrong and bam free drugs

[Autistic Spectrum]

pls stop holy shit it looks like i am trying to fuck a tranny for real lisa change your avatar right fuckign now

[cagordon]

adderall is cool its like superman pills i take them whenever i have important shit to do that requires not being a lazy pos and long periods of boring crap
its easy as hell to get i went to the hospital told some milf dr i couldnt pay attention
she listed a bunch of numbers and words to me and I'd repeat them back to her wrong and bam free drugs
i feel great when i take them.

[steveyos666]

pls stop holy shit it looks like i am trying to fuck a tranny for real lisa change your avatar right fuckign now

[PROFESSIONAL WHITE SUPREMACIST]

hitler took 40s adderall and he almost took over the world

[PROFESSIONAL WHITE SUPREMACIST]

gonna be the next hitler

[Plug Drugs]

i feel great when i take them.

you should come hang out with me irl ;)

[cagordon]

you can't, your not german enough.

[steveyos666]

seriously can anyone else here get through the day sober

[steveyos666]

I gotta get new friends

[Plug Drugs]

I gotta get new friends

says the tramadol addict

[steveyos666]

ya except I was prescribed it and didn't take it and kept telling the doctor to fuck off with the pills and I was the second person my doctor was confident enough to prescribe medical marijuana to ^_^ how's reality

[steveyos666]

he was 9999 years old and was a doctor just as long he had a lot of time to prescribe weed before I came along, think about that, t

[Plug Drugs]

being a pothead is worse than being a speed freak imo

[steveyos666]

yeah but your o is wl (worthless)

[Autistic Spectrum]

stevey the indepenedgt clean living man about town,, lmao stop this stevey i swear to fucking god

[cagordon]

stevey makes tons of money actually

[Autistic Spectrum]

ya he sells weed, so he can buy more shit to grow weed and smokes 5 pounds of his profits daily, can't afford 50 dollors for his mom's medicane, needs 400 pounds of weed a week

[Autistic Spectrum]

he cheat's social sericty like a mother fucker, he's a welfare cheat and a drug dealer, a terrible drug dealer at that

[cagordon]

i wondered how jerry could sell as much weed as he did and not have anything to show for it, but he always
purhased his product from a collective which is stupid

[Autistic Spectrum]

stevey needs to move up the drug chain and become a king pin

[steveyos666]

I need a bad bitch by my side to achieve true hustle

[steveyos666]

bad boys ain't shit without a bad girl need a ratchet bitch ain't afraid of shit

[Dirty Beatle]

stevey makes tons of money actually
You are dumb as fuck

[steveyos YOLO]

seriously can anyone else here get through the day sober

I haven't smoked any since 2009 and haven't drank in 4 years

[cagordon]

I haven't smoked any since 2009 and haven't drank in 4 years

you used to be an alcoholic. :rofl:

[cagordon]

aa graduate.

[steveyos YOLO]

As usual, that made a lot of sense

[cagordon]

it actually does.

[Autistic Spectrum]

cag huffs gas

[cagordon]

gonna huff the freon from dp's airconditioning

[Dirty Beatle]

it actually does.
Actually cag what applies to you does not apply to anyone else.

You are the alcoholic, I've seen you get spastic drunk on cam, get naked, bend over and show me you floppy ass vagina flaps, ask to see mine then decide to go driving.

You are also the only other person here besides Cody who has been diagnosed with being a sociopath. You are a dickhead.

[cagordon]

i will show vagina tonight on tinychat in 2 hours. I have an online class that im finishing up

[Autistic Spectrum]

online so you got raped and watn insainrce money class

[cagordon]

online college courses paid for by rape ^__^

[cagordon]

also taking some workshop in stock trade next month, but thats probably gonna do a whole lotta nothing since its boring as fuck

[Autistic Spectrum]

ugh cag don't waste your money on this shit jesuse chirst

[Autistic Spectrum]

http://ocw.mit.edu/index.htm

[cagordon]

oh wow nice

[Autistic Spectrum]

cag just buy blue chips or some shitty mutual fund u are way way too stupid to day trade

[cagordon]

i was thinking about a mutual fun im no stock trader, i know my limitations

[Autistic Spectrum]

http://stockgame.stockpickr.com/home.aspx

play a fake game with real stocks and data see what happens see how long it takes you to loose all your money

[cagordon]

registering.. i will post my results later

[Dirty Beatle]

http://stockgame.stockpickr.com/home.aspx

play a fake game with real stocks and data see what happens see how long it takes you to loose all your money

I did a game like that in high school, back in the 90's

I made graphs of all the companies' performances over like 10 years and so that way I was able to predict the rise and fall of the more unstable stocks, so I played them weekly, put a bit on a couple gof blue chips just in case I fucked up the risky ones, it was a competition, I came second in the school. Some other prick thought to graph them too and he beat me. How rude of him.

[Autistic Spectrum]

and now you are dirt poor lisa, funny how life handed you lemons and you tried to make tea and joints out of them

[Dirty Beatle]

and now you are dirt poor lisa, funny how life handed you lemons and you tried to make tea and joints out of themlol

[cagordon]

lisa its really sad when you try to laugh with poeple who are clearly laughing at you.

[Autistic Spectrum]

every time she quotes my post with a lol makes me die a little more inside

[steveyos YOLO]

lisa its really sad when you try to laugh with poeple who are clearly laughing at you.

You mean like when people joke about your horse face or deformed tits

[Dirty Beatle]

cag it's really sad that you have been insanely and jealously stalking me online for 3 years

you are delusional, insane and a compulsive liar.

[Autistic Spectrum]

cag it's really sad that you have been insanely and jealously stalking me online for 3 years

you are delusional, insane and a compulsive liar.

lisa i want to see you and cag do lebsian sex to each other really really fucking badly

[steveyos666]

same

[steveyos YOLO]

I wanna watch them walk around naked with mouse traps on their clits

[steveyos666]

same